“So are you able to run yet?” My friend asked me, casually in our conversation together over coffee (and a baby in her ring sling).
“Well, I am physically able to run, I just don’t have the time to right now. But you know, it’s okay, because I’m not a runner, I’m a Mama now,” I began telling myself more than her.
That simple question started me off on a tangent going way back, trying to explain what having a baby has taught me. And I’m still learning.
Lessons from a baby
Having a baby is teaching me so much about myself, and while it is not always fun, it is so valuable.
When I got pregnant sooner than I planned (but God’s plan is so much better!) I found myself having to face a lot about myself. I saw an issue I have, that I did not want to gain weight or get any bigger, fully surface as my body grew and changed in many ways with pregnancy. I realized as I was forced to drastically decrease the amount of running I was doing that running was a much bigger part of my identity than it should have been. I learned how selfish I was, and how much I wanted to do things my way and on my time.
I’m still learning
I definitely still have not learned all these lessons! I still look at my postpartum body and wish I looked and felt like I did before. I still long to go out and do a long run or a speed workout with the same endurance as before. I still want to go out and do things on my own or not be so tied down to my sweet baby’s schedule. But I am still learning.
I am learning to be less selfish. I am learning where I am placing my identity, and shifting my focus to Christ and my identity in Him. I am learning to focus on the needs of others instead of my own. And these lessons are blessings from God.
Children are a blessing
“Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.” Psalm 127. I admit, during my pregnancy and the first few weeks, I do not always feel rewarded. But if I stop and think about it I am overwhelmed with how blessed I am. How do I deserve this reward of this amazing life I am responsible for? How do I deserve the joy she brings? And all the lessons she is teaching me, though she is only twelve weeks old?
I know I do not deserve any of it. I do not deserve any blessings from God, yet He has showered my life to overflowing. Now I must use them to His glory, and thank Him for each one.
This Thanksgiving I am so thankful for so much, but I am especially thankful this year for my sweet baby and all she is teaching me.
What about you?
How are your children a blessing? What lessons have you learned lately?